Easter!

Hey ladies!

So tomorrow is Easter! And as tradition goes, we dyed easter eggs today. Now, this ALWAYS ends up in my fingers being a myriad of different colors for church that evening. This year is NO different.

So what have I been up to? Hmm, let's see.

• Last night I went to the local seminary for a stations of the cross with the cardinal. It was an EXCELLENT evening with friends.
• I've been on spring break since Wednesday, and I don't go back to school until Tuesday. This was a much welcomed and appreciated break :)

So I hope all of you are doing well! I have to go get ready for church tonight. Then I am coming home and making a chocolate cake for tomorrow [family is coming over] and get a little easter egg hunt ready for my little cousin :)

HAPPY EASTER [or whatever holiday you celebrate] LADIES!!!!

P

Okayyy :)

Hey ladies!

Haven't posted since that very upset post.

Just wanted to let you all know that things fell into place

and I am good now.

This weekend will be crazy, but I'll try to post at least once!

Off to school!

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Have you ever....

Good evening ladies, hope you are all well.

I have to apologize. It seems whenever I manage to get on here to post, I'm always mad, upset, frustrated, or a combination of all of the above.

Today, I can't begin to disect the emotion.

Have you ever had one [or multiple] times in your life when you just feel like you don't know who you can trust and you don't know who is being honest with you?

I know that I've had MANY times like this, and currently am. I just get to a point where even though my 'friends' are still there, I begin to question things like, are they really my friend? Or even, do they talk about me when I'm not there, but pretend to like me when I am?

It's a really bad feeling.

It's not like most of them have ever given me a reason to believe that, in fact most of them have always been there for me. But for some reason, I get really insecure, and I know it's my own fault. Like a friend who has never made me angry, never been mean, never even argued with me, I now worry that I did something or something happened to make her walk away. And most of the time, they do things that most people would just see as normal, but to me, they seem like things that people do to avoid other people.

I know I sound like a dramatic teenager, so I truly do apologize.

I realize that compared to some problems, mine are miniscule, so I apologize.

I understand that I can be very insecure and overdramatic, so I apologize.

All in all, I just need to get all of this off of my mind and hopefully get some sleep tonight. I am truly exhausted, but have not slept well this week for various reasons [not all due to this]. By writing this down in a blog, I'm hoping my mind will be able to rest for at least 8 hours. I'd accept anything more than 5 at this point.

I hope everything is going well for you. I hope this blog finds you happy.

P

P.S. Please pray for baby Stellan! If you don't read MckMama's blog, check it out here: www.mycharmingfamily.net

P.P.S. This blog is going to go private within the next week or two. If you'd like to be invited to read it, please please please please send me your email and I will add you. I have no problem with many of you reading it, but there have been people finding this via Google, and I'd really prefer that not happen. I'm not sure if there is a way to make the followers automatically invited, but I'll figure it out.

For a friend.

One thing you will come to know about me is that I will do anything and everything I can for one of my close friends. Sometimes, I wish I could just take all the pain, worry, sorrow, or just the upsetting things away from them, but unfortunately, it is not humanly possible. That really hurts me. When I see my friends going through something or just being upset, all I want is for them to no longer feel that.

Right now, my friend K seems to be going through something. Now I have no idea what it is, but I doesn't matter because no matter how big it is all I want to do is take it all away from her. We are seriously more like sisters [we call each other sis and all that] and we were supposed to hang out tomorrow night. Well, we can hang out tomorrow night at school, but I most likely can't sleep over like we were planning. Now, I know that we will eventually, but it just seems like she is going through something and could use it, but her parents said no. I just, I feel really terrible, even though there isn't really anything I can do about it. And as much as I know that, it still doesn't make me feel any better about it. The next 2 weekends after this weekend are booked up for both of us, her with her things and me with SATs and getting my wisdom teeth out, so I know we won't be able to hang out til pretty much April after this weekend, except for tomorrow night and maybe one or two days after school.

What can I do? What can I humanly, possibly do to help her in this situation? I could be way off and nothing may be bothering her, but IDK. She REALLY wanted to hang out tomorrow night [as did I] and she's really mad that we can't. I can't go against her parents, but I feel terrible not knowing what to do. I just....she's my best friend. I have a couple, but we've gotten really close over these past couple months and yes, she's my little sister. Right now I am just at a loss and hoping that her parents change their minds and let us hang out tomorrow night.

Please keep your fingers crossed for me.

Hope all you lovely ladies are doing well :]

-P

P.S. The Junior Prom thing isn't getting anywhere :( I haven't been able to find a date. We'll see what happens, but the tickets go on sale Monday....so I don't have a lot of hope right now. But I guess if it's meant to be it will happen. It seems I have to have a lot of hope in a lot of things right now....

My new way.

I normally would not have a religious post, so if it will offend anyone, I'm sorry, but you may want to keep reading. Even if you do not believe what I do, maybe this will touch you.

Let me start off by saying, I've always gone to church. The thing is though, I never WANTED to be there, and I think that took away from my experience. I haven't gone as much recently, and I always say I'm 'too busy' to go, but not anymore. Jesus sacrificed Himself for us, so I can give an hour of my life to him. Whatever happens in that hour can wait. I'm making myself a promise from this day forward to go to Mass every Sunday, no matter what may be going on. There are 4 Masses every Sunday, so I have plenty of opportunity. I think this is the best thing for me right now. I have a crazy time in my life coming up VERY quickly [picking colleges, graduating, etc.] and I think the thing that will get me through that is my faith. I also believe that my faith will get me through the entire rest of my life, past senior year, past college,

and into my adult life.

People claim, 'Why would I believe in something I have never seen or experienced?' You see and experience the extreme power of Christ every time you see a new baby, every time the seasons change, every time something in your life is going right, or even when something in you life may be going wrong, but somehow you find the strength to continue. I personally can say I have experience a miracle, no matter how big or small, it still counts. That's how I will continue to live my life, as if everything is a miracle, great or small.

I have to give a shout out to those whose blogs I have been reading, because it is because of you and your stories that I have refound my faith. The stories of your families, and your miracles have touched me, and I cannot believe anything but the fact that it was meant to be. I do not know how I came across each of your blogs, but I did, and they changed me as a person, in a good way.

Hope you are all doing well, and I hope that no matter your faith and your beliefs, this has touched you.

P

P.S. I am currently on the search for a purity ring, so if any of you happen to come across one you think I would find meaning in, please let me know.

Let me explain....

I'm really sorry.

I'll explain yesterday's random outburst.

My junior prom is in April. Tickets go on sale next week or the week after. I realllllllly want to go, but I don't want to go without a date. There in lies my problem. I have no options for a date. I can GUARANTEE that no one will even attempt to ask me, and I don't have anyone I can really ask.

I won't go without a date though, as much as it will kill me.

My friend who doesn't even go to my school gets to go, and honestly, I think that is what hurts the most. I want to go so badly and they just get to go because OUR [mutual] friend who goes to my school asked her to go. I know it's terrible to be jealous of that, but I am.

I'm hoping something amazing happens, but I honestly cannot see it happening, and that has put me in a really upset mood recently.

I know this is probably the most PETTY thing ever, but it is still bothering me.

Sorry.

Hope all is well for you.

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Not many words today.

I hate all of this.
It's crappy and I'm tired of it.

That's it. Just needed to vent.

Hope all of you are doing well.

P

La la la.

Hello everyone!

I'm extremely bored....so why not blog!

I am currently watching Reba [I love this show!] and I actually just got done dinner.

Friday is our Winter Ball :) I just tried to find a picture of my dress but I can't :( I'll take some Friday night though :)

I'm afraid it might be awkward before hand though....I'm supposed to be going to my friend K's house, but its going to be 3 couples and me....so I guess I'll just hope it isn't awkward or I'll make different plans. We'll see. K's sleeping over after, so I am definitely going, but I mean, I don't do well with awkwardness. So keep your fingers crossed for my Friday night maybe? Thank you :)

Well, I am going to go, but look for a post on Friday night or Saturday sometime.

Love you all ladies :)

P

So.

So I'm currently sitting on the couch on a Friday night hanging out with one of my best friends, K. We're watching NCIS. We weren't even supposed to hang out today, but then we decided to do dinner, then we decided we felt like having a sleep over! So here we are, 11:40pm, just chilling out. I have so much fun hanging out with her!

This week was okay. I'm still getting over being sick :( and I think it's coming back....I stopped taking my medicine too early :\. Next week I have state standardized testing :(. It's FOUR DAYS for ONE PART. The writing part is Mon, Tues, Wed, and Thurs. It's during one period every day, so we have a 15 minute lunch. Ugh.

I have a weird obsession with coloring, just throwing that out there, so I tried out something new. Color Wonder?!?! By Crayola? It is SO cool! That and Color Explosion! It's so fun :P.

I'm really missing my one friend at the moment. I haven't seen her since the middle of September....it makes me really sad. We were really close. I still have her Christmas gift. I guess maybe I can just drop it on her front step since I don't want to not give it to her. I'll probably do that sometime this coming week.

Well, it's now 11:45, so I'm thinking we might like go do something random. Something tells me that me and K will probably be going to bed around, I don't know, 2-3am? Last time we went to bed at 5am, so who knows how well we'll do. Tomorrow morning we might go out to breakfast, which should be fun, if we get SOME sleep. Maybe just like 4-5 hours? Haha.

I hope all of you are doing well!

Me :)

I did it.

I just created my picture blog really quickly. Add it!

www.343days.blogspot.com

I couldn't decide what to make my first OFFICIAL post....

Since my first post was just an "introduction", I figured I should make my FIRST OFFICIAL post something really exciting....so why not some pictures?!?! :D

me and my crazy friends on my birthday!

me in front of the christmas tree!

me and friends before homecoming


I'll probably post more later too :] But right now I have to go get ready because I am taking my mom out for her birthday [her birthday was sunday]. We're planning on going to a movie [possibly Marley and Me] then going out to lunch, and then going shopping!
Hopefully it will be a fun day :]

I might steal some other people's idea and do the whole "A year in pictures blog" thing. Even though I am almost a month behind :P I know I don't have any pictures from the beginning of this year, but better late then never, right?? So starting today there will be a new picture every day :]

me :]

First post! Woo!

Heyy.

So welcome to Randomville, home of myself and any other person, place or animal that happens to come wandering through in one of my posts :]

I had a...wordpress account? for a while, but blogspot seemed to be better, so here's the new account! Now I just need to make some friends!

I'm going to try to be good about posting here, so check for updates!!

Me =]