My new way.

I normally would not have a religious post, so if it will offend anyone, I'm sorry, but you may want to keep reading. Even if you do not believe what I do, maybe this will touch you.

Let me start off by saying, I've always gone to church. The thing is though, I never WANTED to be there, and I think that took away from my experience. I haven't gone as much recently, and I always say I'm 'too busy' to go, but not anymore. Jesus sacrificed Himself for us, so I can give an hour of my life to him. Whatever happens in that hour can wait. I'm making myself a promise from this day forward to go to Mass every Sunday, no matter what may be going on. There are 4 Masses every Sunday, so I have plenty of opportunity. I think this is the best thing for me right now. I have a crazy time in my life coming up VERY quickly [picking colleges, graduating, etc.] and I think the thing that will get me through that is my faith. I also believe that my faith will get me through the entire rest of my life, past senior year, past college,

and into my adult life.

People claim, 'Why would I believe in something I have never seen or experienced?' You see and experience the extreme power of Christ every time you see a new baby, every time the seasons change, every time something in your life is going right, or even when something in you life may be going wrong, but somehow you find the strength to continue. I personally can say I have experience a miracle, no matter how big or small, it still counts. That's how I will continue to live my life, as if everything is a miracle, great or small.

I have to give a shout out to those whose blogs I have been reading, because it is because of you and your stories that I have refound my faith. The stories of your families, and your miracles have touched me, and I cannot believe anything but the fact that it was meant to be. I do not know how I came across each of your blogs, but I did, and they changed me as a person, in a good way.

Hope you are all doing well, and I hope that no matter your faith and your beliefs, this has touched you.

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P.S. I am currently on the search for a purity ring, so if any of you happen to come across one you think I would find meaning in, please let me know.

Let me explain....

I'm really sorry.

I'll explain yesterday's random outburst.

My junior prom is in April. Tickets go on sale next week or the week after. I realllllllly want to go, but I don't want to go without a date. There in lies my problem. I have no options for a date. I can GUARANTEE that no one will even attempt to ask me, and I don't have anyone I can really ask.

I won't go without a date though, as much as it will kill me.

My friend who doesn't even go to my school gets to go, and honestly, I think that is what hurts the most. I want to go so badly and they just get to go because OUR [mutual] friend who goes to my school asked her to go. I know it's terrible to be jealous of that, but I am.

I'm hoping something amazing happens, but I honestly cannot see it happening, and that has put me in a really upset mood recently.

I know this is probably the most PETTY thing ever, but it is still bothering me.

Sorry.

Hope all is well for you.

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Not many words today.

I hate all of this.
It's crappy and I'm tired of it.

That's it. Just needed to vent.

Hope all of you are doing well.

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La la la.

Hello everyone!

I'm extremely bored....so why not blog!

I am currently watching Reba [I love this show!] and I actually just got done dinner.

Friday is our Winter Ball :) I just tried to find a picture of my dress but I can't :( I'll take some Friday night though :)

I'm afraid it might be awkward before hand though....I'm supposed to be going to my friend K's house, but its going to be 3 couples and me....so I guess I'll just hope it isn't awkward or I'll make different plans. We'll see. K's sleeping over after, so I am definitely going, but I mean, I don't do well with awkwardness. So keep your fingers crossed for my Friday night maybe? Thank you :)

Well, I am going to go, but look for a post on Friday night or Saturday sometime.

Love you all ladies :)

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So.

So I'm currently sitting on the couch on a Friday night hanging out with one of my best friends, K. We're watching NCIS. We weren't even supposed to hang out today, but then we decided to do dinner, then we decided we felt like having a sleep over! So here we are, 11:40pm, just chilling out. I have so much fun hanging out with her!

This week was okay. I'm still getting over being sick :( and I think it's coming back....I stopped taking my medicine too early :\. Next week I have state standardized testing :(. It's FOUR DAYS for ONE PART. The writing part is Mon, Tues, Wed, and Thurs. It's during one period every day, so we have a 15 minute lunch. Ugh.

I have a weird obsession with coloring, just throwing that out there, so I tried out something new. Color Wonder?!?! By Crayola? It is SO cool! That and Color Explosion! It's so fun :P.

I'm really missing my one friend at the moment. I haven't seen her since the middle of September....it makes me really sad. We were really close. I still have her Christmas gift. I guess maybe I can just drop it on her front step since I don't want to not give it to her. I'll probably do that sometime this coming week.

Well, it's now 11:45, so I'm thinking we might like go do something random. Something tells me that me and K will probably be going to bed around, I don't know, 2-3am? Last time we went to bed at 5am, so who knows how well we'll do. Tomorrow morning we might go out to breakfast, which should be fun, if we get SOME sleep. Maybe just like 4-5 hours? Haha.

I hope all of you are doing well!

Me :)